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i am a stupid & foolish girl who leads herself &, most probably also suffer her beloved family, because of her foolish expectation.....

4 years before, i was hoping to exchange a better life in the future with the hardship studying abroad, receiping the BOLSA DE ESTUDO. never can i imagine it's  the nightmare of my life.

throughout these 4 years, i lost my youth, teenage, my happiness, my freedom, all the things that are precious to a person who is juridically dignified, and humanly worth to be.

no one could imagine how hard it would be until you experience it.
i just simply hate those who admire the life in Europe, and never understand how misery my life is.

i can use 4 simples words to explain how it is -- i & books, Home & Faculty.
it's my life.!!!!

moreover, i lost what is most important to human being, it's the FREEDOM,

i can't even choose when can i go back home for holiday, or can i go back home,
it's all under the HAND OF A DICTATOR.

i am a slave, not a human being.
i am so sad to have given up my dignity, my freedom, my BOM NOME....in the exchange of the sponsor that i really think it's nothing to me, as i am not a money minded person. --- it's of nothing to me

initially, what i thought is to have a better life in the future, however, because of my choice, i am torturing myself, my family, at this very moment.....

GOD, could you please tell me if i worth or deserve to be a human being who deserve his right?